Malas sungguh aku nak update blog ni. Hahahaha. Dah takde mood nak menaip. Uhuk. Kalo nak cerita banyak jer benda aku nak ceritakan. Tapi aku malas. Malas. Dan malas. Hehe.
Mimpi pun da kurang. Sebab penat. Haih. Tapi lately aku mimpi bawak kereta. Sama ada kereta aku xleh nak bawak laju (mimpi kena kejar org) atau kereta aku xleh nak brek (pastu eksiden). Erh. Napa erk? Hahaha.
p/s: Entri ni penuh dgn emosi.
Bongok btul insurans company kereta aku ni lah. Hantar surat. Siap tulis Rm60. Mak aku suh call. Tanya bendalah apa ni? Aku baca surat tu pun aku tak paham. Amende yg dia nak sebenarnya? Nak kene bayar ke apa?
Surat dari Batu Pahat. Aku pun call la no Batu Pahat tu.
Surat tu sikit pun takde explain apa2. Tah amende dia tulis tah. Takde foreplay terus terkam terjah. Pehal?
Bila aku call tanya perihal surat yg di hantar, dia suh aku baca subjek surat tu. Masalahnya surat tu subjek hapa tajuk pun tak tulis. Takde intro jadah haram ke hapa. Terus tulis description bla bla bla lepas tu ada RM60 tah jadah RM 10 stamp duty. Pastu description per person RM50 000.
Pastu suh tanya ejen. Ejen jadah nya. Benda boleh solve by phone ngada2 nak suh jumpa ejen. Aku cuma nak tanya psl surat tu dia nak apa sbnrnya. Jawapan paling bodoh bila aku dgr “tak tau la. jumpa ejen la”. Bongok! Terus maki free je aku bagi. Dah la ada bos kanan kiri. Aku pun tak tau napa aku takleh nak control. Mmg maki ah. Antara ayat maki aku “u yg jual insuran ni u ptt tau la apa yg u kasi. apa yg u tulis. i as customer mana tau apa u tulis ni. kalau i tau i tak telefon u ni.”
lepas tu “sbb maybe surat ni bukan dari batu pahat tu kita tak tau”. aku jwb “amender bukan dari batu pahat. Ni surat sign dari batu pahat. *sebut nama org yg sign surat tu*. sbb tu la call no batu pahat!”
Maki maki maki. Sendri hantar sendri tak tau apa yg di hantar. Menyirap aku. Mmg cam haram.
Lepas tu dia minta hold. Transfer call aku kat org lain.
Org len jawab. Dia suh aku baca subjek surat tu. Hangin aku yg baru nak reda naek balik. Tapi aku cuba cool sikit. Sbb org len jawab. Tak baek la terus maki2. Sabar sabar.
“Subjek apa pun takde tulis. Sbb tu saya tak paham surat yg di hantar ni.” pastu aku baca balik apa yg ada tulis kat surat ni. Dia pun blur. Hangin aku naik la balik. Pastu bagi alasan “Maybe surat dari KL. Jadi kami tak pasti surat apa”. Apa lagi “Apa plak dari KL. Dah sah sah tulis dari batu pahat! siap ada cop sign lagi ni. *sebut balik nama org yg sign beserta jawatan”. “Owh. En ******”.
“Erm. Encik boleh bagi no policy insuran encik. Kami nak semak”. Lepas semak semua bla bla bla, (tu pun tak jmpa no policy aku. lepas tu dia search by name). Baru setel apa yg surat ni nak sbnrnya. Surat tu cuma policy penumpang kalo eksiden mati dpt RM50k. Kena simpan. Bukan nak bayar apa2. Tuh jer. Sbb tu aku malas nak jmpa ejen. Benda simple jadikan complicated. Mmg hangin aku satu badan.
Korunk dpt tangkap tak apa yg aku hangin kan? Aku hangin sbb benda tu ko boleh check kat komputer, kenapa awal2 lagi ko tak chk? Terus suh aku jumpa ejen. Customer service amende ko ni. Bengkek tol aku dgn org yg malas ni. Lepas tu bagi alasan cam haram! Bengang aku sbb aku tanya soalan, dia tanya aku balik. Ko nak pelempang ke apa? Lagi aku hangin bila dia tanya soalan yg aku tak boleh nak jawab. Suruh baca subjek surat! Subjek amender! Satu haram explanation pun takde tulis. Len kali nak antar policy insurans letak sekali surat dan terangkan amende yg ko hantar. Jangan nak nyusahkan customer suruh call balik sbb tak paham, tp bila call tanya, ko plak tak paham. Lepas tu jgn malas chk kat komputer utk rekod tu! Senang kerja. Takde sapa kene marah. Takde sapa buang masa. Siap.
Bila semua da setel dah faham. Aku cool balik. Cakap baik2. Tanya baik2. Kemudian the end. Senang cerita.
p/s: Kepada yg terkena marah tu. Aku mintak maap la eh. Angin aku tak baik. Hahaha.
Nov 3rd, 2009 by keSatria
Minta tolong boleh?
Saya kehilangan semangat kerja saya. Saya dah tak semangat nak pergi kerja. Saya taknak pergi kerja. Saya…
Jadi sebelum saya jadi gila, boleh tak carikan semula semangat kerja saya yang hilang? Kerana saya takde benda lain yg boleh saya buat melainkan kerja. Dan kalau kerja pun saya takde semangat nak buat, saya… 
Jangan salah faham! Saya mahu kerja. Saya mesti kerja. Cuma sekarang, saya takde semangat nak kerja. Jadi tolong la ya. Carikan semula semangat saya yang hilang. Saya tak tau kat mana semangat tu dah hilank. 
Oct 13th, 2009 by keSatria
layan kan si syaznur ni. hehe. ambil dari sini.
*“We’re born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we’re not alone.”
*One day you’ll love me, the way I loved you. One day you’ll think of me the way I thought of you. One day you’ll cry for me, the way I cried for you. One day you’ll want me, but I won’t want you.
*It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone, when you’re heart still does.
*Sometimes I wish I had never met you because then I could go to bed at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.
*It’s like my mind knows what’s right but my heart is being retarded and still cares.
*Cupid shot a love arrow into my back without asking for my consent. Once again, he didn’t ask for my consent when he took it back out. Is this fair?
*Our relationship can be best described as a crumpled piece of paper; no matter how hard you try to straighten it out, it’ll never take on its true form.
*Some people say that you don’t know what you have until you lose it, but it’s not like that… I always knew what I had, I just never thought I would lose it.
*I have these pictures and I keep these photographs, to remind me of a time; these pictures and these photographs let me know I’m doin’ fine, I used to make you happy, once upon a time. I don’t talk to you too much these days, I just thank the lord pictures don’t fade. Now all that’s left is these pictures of you….
*They say that if you love someone you should let them go, but they never say what to do when they don’t come back.
*A song that could only once make me smile, can now only make me cry.
*People ask how I feel, that’s the problem - I don’t.
*I always knew that looking back on the tears would make me laugh; but I never knew that looking back to the laughs would make me cry.
*I don’t try to remember us but when I do, it brings a smile to my lips and a tear to my eye.
*No one can ever promise you they will never hurt you, because at one time or another it will happen. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in the end.
*You knew I loved you. You knew I cared. Then, why when I needed you, you were never there?
Kesah yang berlaku ketika aku menjalani induksi di Taiping Perak.
Pada sehari sebelum tamat kursus kami. Kami satu bas pergi makan Mee Udang.
Duduk semeja bersama geng geng aku. Tapi yang sebelah kanan aku; terus terang aku katakan aku tak berapa kenal sangat. Maklumlah, batch induksi ni terlalu ramai. Kiranya berlaku la sesi ramah mesra.
Lelaki la. Bukan perempuan.
Borak borak.
Tetiba boleh tanya umur masing-masing.
Maka adegan ini pun berlaku:
Dia: Owh, aku igt ko lagi muda dari aku.
Aku: Owh, aku igt ko lagi tua dari aku.
Dia 22 tahun.
Aku 24 tahun.
Sep 29th, 2009 by keSatria
Semalam aku moody dan emo dekat lorry yg rosak lalu menyebabkan kesesakkan lalu lintas lantas aku smpai ke tempat kerja lambat maka angan-angan aku mahu pulang awal ke rumah terbantut dek kerana lorry yg rosak itu rosak.
Harini? Aku moody dan emo kerana bermacam-macam perkara yang aku rasa tak ptt aku ceritakan disini mahu pun dimana-mana telah berlaku kepada diri aku. Aku juga tak tau kenapa aku tersangat sensitif harini dan kalau di umpamakan hati aku umpama kapas yang senang di carik2 lalu terbakar meruap api kemarahan dalam diri aku. Korunk tak paham ayat aku takpe sbb aku tak suruh korunk pahamkan pun apa yg aku tulis ni. Wahaha.
Terima kasih kepada mereka yang bertanya kenapa aku moody dan emo. Aku cuma boleh ceritakan sedikit saja. Tak sampai 5%. Yang lebih-lebihnya aku tak tau nak cerita mcm mana.
Ia tersangkut di dada. Menunggu waktu untuk pecah. Bila pecah, aku mungkin akan melakukan sesuatu yg bodoh.
Untuk sekian kali, aku meminta agar aku mempunyai hati batu. Dah banyak kali aku tulis dalam blog ni aku mahu ada hati batu yg tidak beperasaan.
Maka aku boleh la meneruskan kehidupan tanpa rasa apa-apa yang membebankan.
mengatakan. Kedua-dua housemates aku akan meninggalkan aku selama 3 bulan. Maksudnya aku akan dok rumah ni sorunk2 selama 3 bulan. 
*Speechless*
I bought myself one new toy. Bought it last Friday night. Thanks Nan for your patient. Thanks Alip and Apek as you guys willingly agreed to come with me.
I bought this toy not because I want it but it is because I need it. Doesn’t feel happy though. Feel empty. Hopefully this toy can survive for another 4 5 years. Doesn’t really fancy about this kind of gadget anymore. No longer interested actually. But since I need it, have to buy.
There goes my money. I officially declared myself bankrupt for the whole month! Hopefully I would be able to survive! *praying hard got outstations next month*
—stop reading! emo entry ahead!—
The thing I want now is something that I can’t buy with money. No matter how much money I got, it is impossible to buy it.
Did you guys realize, when you buy something you really want, the mutual feeling of happiness you guys feel will dissolve slowly? And when time pass by, you won’t feel happy anymore with the thing you bought before?
Did you guys realize, when someone say thanks to you, or appreciating you in a way of good thought, simple yet not expensive; as long as the thought is what matters, the mutual feeling of happiness you guys feel won’t dissolve no matter how long the time pass?
My mum used to say “Duit boleh cari. Tapi nyawa mana nak cari?”
What she’s trying to say is, you can find money. You can buy anything you want with money. You can feel happy with it. But, are you really happy? Do you? Can your money buy true happiness?
There’s a lot of thing I learned when I was a kid. My childhood memories are not as good as peoples around me. When I say not good, its not that I can’t remember it well, instead what I mean is the experience are not nice to be remembering at all.
From that experiences, I learned to appreciate every simple things. No matter how simple it is, I will appreciate it. The thought is what matters. The thought it what important. That would be good enough to make me feel happy.
Did you guys know, in every relationship; friends, couples etc. There is give and take. The rule of thumbs is, everyone must give! Then only you can take. But somehow, there’s some peoples, they tend to take rather than give. They never learn how to appreciate others. Ego. Selfish.
I am tired with this kind of people. I give them chances to improve themselves. Not once but more than thrice. But if they still never intend to change than I guess, I should give up. I don’t want to waste my time on people like this.
Why I am being so emotional tonight? I don’t know. I don’t even know why! So please don’t ask me why. Cos I don’t even know the reason.
I feel tired. That’s all.
p/s:
Sep 26th, 2009 by keSatria
Omai Omai!
Sorry Farah! Aku lupa nak wat entry utk ko! Huhu. Walopun aku dah wish ko On-Time kan kat sms, tp still tak best kalo aku tak wat entri tuk ko. Sorry weyh. Jangan kecik ati! Hehe. Apa-apa pun, Happy Belated Birthday Farah!
Same old wish:
Btw, birthday Farah jatuh pada 23hb September. Huhu.
Haih. Sapa yang rajin Google nama aku ni? Aku rasa mcm ada stalker je. Scary syial. Aku dah la dulu ada stalker tah mana yg wat aku seram sejuk! Huhu.
Jika anda berniat buruk, ingatlah. Jaga diri baik-baik. 
Buat masa ni aku sangat sangat sangat malas nak update blog. Kerana:
Kepada new readers, thanks for visiting my blog. But sorry to say, I won’t be able to update my blog as frequently as usual. Hehe.
Kepada unknown readers, thanks for your comment. Appreciate it.
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