I bought myself one new toy. Bought it last Friday night. Thanks Nan for your patient. Thanks Alip and Apek as you guys willingly agreed to come with me.
I bought this toy not because I want it but it is because I need it. Doesn’t feel happy though. Feel empty. Hopefully this toy can survive for another 4 5 years. Doesn’t really fancy about this kind of gadget anymore. No longer interested actually. But since I need it, have to buy.
There goes my money. I officially declared myself bankrupt for the whole month! Hopefully I would be able to survive! *praying hard got outstations next month*
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The thing I want now is something that I can’t buy with money.
No matter how much money I got, it is impossible to buy it.
Did you guys realize, when you buy something you really want, the mutual feeling of happiness you guys feel will dissolve slowly? And when time pass by, you won’t feel happy anymore with the thing you bought before?
Did you guys realize, when someone say thanks to you, or appreciating you in a way of good thought, simple yet not expensive; as long as the thought is what matters, the mutual feeling of happiness you guys feel won’t dissolve no matter how long the time pass?
My mum used to say “Duit boleh cari. Tapi nyawa mana nak cari?”
What she’s trying to say is, you can find money. You can buy anything you want with money. You can feel happy with it. But, are you really happy? Do you? Can your money buy true happiness?
There’s a lot of thing I learned when I was a kid. My childhood memories are not as good as peoples around me. When I say not good, its not that I can’t remember it well, instead what I mean is the experience are not nice to be remembering at all.
From that experiences, I learned to appreciate every simple things. No matter how simple it is, I will appreciate it. The thought is what matters. The thought it what important. That would be good enough to make me feel happy.
Did you guys know, in every relationship; friends, couples etc. There is give and take. The rule of thumbs is, everyone must give! Then only you can take. But somehow, there’s some peoples, they tend to take rather than give. They never learn how to appreciate others. Ego. Selfish.
I am tired with this kind of people. I give them chances to improve themselves. Not once but more than thrice. But if they still never intend to change than I guess, I should give up. I don’t want to waste my time on people like this.
Why I am being so emotional tonight? I don’t know. I don’t even know why! So please don’t ask me why. Cos I don’t even know the reason.
I feel tired. That’s all.
p/s:
- Alip, bawak kereta baek-baek Alip. Jangan jadi mcm aku. Fobia sekejap aku semlm. Kalo kene langgar aku yg kena dulu dowh!
- Those who still with me, thanks a a lot. Let us create another good memory, shall we? So when we reminiscence the past, we will be happy. No matter how long time pass by.